Lately I've been feeling really alone. I know that it's not the case. I'm surrounded by people. Yet at the same time, I can't help but feel it. I just feel like everyone has their own lives and there's no room for me. Everything is about to change big time and I'm not sure I'm ready for it. Ready or not, it's going to happen. I hate change sometimes, I really do. I know it can be good and positive and healthy, but it just throws everything off.

Lots of stuff has been going on but I don't really feel like writing about that right now. I'm not sure what I feel like writing about. I'm just in feeling a general discontent feeling about life. I have to do work but I don't feel like it. I guess it's fair to say I'm sad.

"I wish I were special..."