Lots to update on! Last week was basically amazing. Jose came for a few days and I'm so happy I got to see him. It really sucks not being able to see him all the time, however when we do see each other, it's like a million times more amazing. And it was a perfect few days. We went to NYC to the Museum of Natural History and I taught him just about everything I learned in African Art History this past semester, so that was cool. They have so much awesome stuff there that we lost track of time until they made the announcement that they were closing soon! We spent almost five hours there. Then we walked around NYC and went to Central Park and sat on a bench, watching people row in little boats. It was so beautiful. I shall post a picture! We went to dinner at this really great Chinese restaurant and I introduced him to Pinkberry (which is seriously the best stuff in the world!) We took a late train back and then hung out. It was a perfect few days.

Then, I went to MA for the night to visit with all my friends from UConn. It was nice to see them too, although kind of weird. It's a long complicated story, but it makes me sad and I'm not entirely sure what to do about it anymore. However, I did have a really great time and I really have missed all of them. It really was nice to see them and I hope that I see them again soon. I want to have as many fun adventures as I possibly can this summer.

So I may have found a job. Actually, two jobs. It's also kind of complicated but the short version is I may work for the Mac's friend, or, I found this job though student employment at my old high school (which was really strange to go back to! Jose came with me and he was just like "your student center is bigger then my entire school was") and now I don't know what to do. I'm working for the Mac's friend today and hopefully we can discuss further what their summer plans are/how much I can work for them. This other job offer is pretty consistant (meaning every week day) so I don't want to take it until I know I'm really free. I have to talk to the Mac's friend first though. I'm glad I have offers at least because I'm so desperate, I'll do just about anything right now. I need to make (and save) as much money as possible.

I woke up early and went to the gym with Ellesse this morning. I'm tired now and a little sore (even though I didn't do weights, just an hour and a half of cardio) but I guess that's good. I still really hate the gym, I don't think that's every going to change. Now I'm just doing some busy work until I go over to Ellesse's to clean my car and then off to walk the dogs for the Mac's friend and pick up their kid from school. I'm a little nervous, I've only met the daughter a few times, but she seems really sweet. I've never babysat for her though and I always get nervous with a new routine. At least I'm developing a routine though, I'm not complaining about that.

Ok this turned out to be really long. I'm going to go do some stuff now, but I shall try to be more consistant with my updates!

I want your love and I want your revenge, you and me could write a bad romance

I love shea and coco butter. They make my skin so soft!

Not a bad weekend. Not a great weekend either. I'm conflicted about a lot of stuff.

Sigh.

I've been horrible at posting lately and I apologize. There's really no reason for it, I haven't been that busy. I'm still trying my HARDEST to find a job for the summer. I seriously have no idea what I'm going to do. I've been babysitting for the Mac's a few times and I probably will continue to while the kids are in school. I may babysit for one of the kids' friends too, so that would be good. But then they're going to MD like usual (as far as I know) and I don't know if I'll be invited this year, especially after last year. But I won't get into that because I'm trying to think positively.

I went out with my cousin Jen today which was a lot of fun as always. It was nice to catch up with her and she's a lot happier now that she's self employed again. So that's good.

Most of my time has been catching up with people, which has been nice. I seriously want to be working more though because I'm so beyond broke that it's sad. I have less then no money at the moment and I'm so sick of having no money. I know I'll be getting a little money next week but it's not going to help much because I know it won't last long. I'm not even that horrible at managing money, I just have a lot of expenses (bills, medication, food, etc) that I don't get help with. Sigh.

My summer sewing project (or at least the first one) is making another quilt. I'm making it out of all the scrap fabric I have left over from projects and projects. It's coming along nicely so far. I could use my grandmothers sewing machine but I've decided that I want to do it by hand. They mean more to me that way, like my hand physically sewed this entire quilt that is keeping you warm. I need to fix my original t-shirt quilt. I also need some inspiration for other projects because with all my free time, I'd like to be doing something somewhat productive.

I guess that's all for now. I'm kind of boring lately. I'm doing laundry, I have to remember to swap it into the dryer. And eventually, I need to clean out the garage (yikes!)

Today is double sad.

So finals week came and went, pretty quickly and painless so that was good. I'm home now, and my room is an absolute MESS! So is my garage where the majority of my crap is. I need someone to help me organize everything and throw shit away. Seriously, I have so much stuff. Part of the issue is because I'm staying in my grandparents guest room and there's no where to put any of my stuff (it's also a pretty small room) so that's that. I want to get organized, I feel like I'll have a better grip on my life.

I found my quote journals, which I'm really really happy about. I want to do something crafty and neat. I want to stop feeling sad. So many wants...

I'm in the darkroom right now and it is SO FUCKING HOT!!!!! It's pretty warm outside too, but it's just a hundred degrees hotter in here (so it feels like). Yuck! I hate feeling sticky and gross. I'm wearing jeans and I'm regretting it big time - this is why I stick to skirts and dresses in the summer. Ventilation!

This weekend was hectic. Jose came up to help me move and it was a lot more slow of a process then I had hoped it would be. We only made one trip on Saturday, in one car only, so that was kind of sucky. Then he brought more stuff home for me last night while I stayed up at school and tried to do work (unsuccessfully). I'm glad I got to spend time with him this weekend though, it's always nice. I feel stupid at the end of our time together because I ALWAYS cry. I can't help it, I just get so sad. And then I'm sad for a few days afterwards. Meaning, I'm still sad today. I don't sleep as well and that really sucks. I only slept like three hours last night.

I have to focus on African Art, big time. I finished both of my photo projects so I'm all set for that. But, not so much for African Art. I'm embarrassed to say I still haven't finished the book OR written the paper on said book. Yeah, I suck. It was due a week ago. I have to have it done by Wednesday, no matter what, because that's when the final is. I know, I fucking suck at life sometimes. Ughhhhh!

All I want to do is sleep in some air conditioned room. I'd totally be more motivated to do work if it weren't so muggy outside. I'm literally sweating as I sit here without doing anything. Ok I'll stop describing it and being gross now.

Anyways. I should probably go and be productive or something. I'm deciding if I should go home tonight and bring more stuff back or if I should just stay up here. I hate decision making, I really really do.