This week has been kind of rough so far and I'm not sure why. Brooke was pretty bad yesterday. I find it a lot harder to watch kids when parents/grandparents are around. Because I'm not really watching them fully, and I can't get into the right rhythm. Anyways, I'm picking her up from camp shortly. I hope she's good today. Her mom is away this week (till Thurs I think) and her grandparents are watching her, but they're going out tonight so I'm in charge I guess. It just stresses me out this job, but I need the money so freaking badly that I don't have much of a choice in the matter.

Speaking of money I don't know what I'm going to do. I have rent due this weekend when I go to get my keys and I don't have it. I'm pretty sure when I talked to my dad he said he could lend it to me until my financial aid comes through because it has yet to. Which I'm also really annoyed and pissed off about. It's partially my fault, but it's also a lot of UConn's fault and I have a feeling I'm going to get mega screwed and be in deep shit for this up coming school year. I need all the extra money I was supposed to get so I can pay rent and for food. Ugh.

I'm feeling really strange right now and I'm not entirely sure why. I can't get comfortable. I'm not tired, I slept really well last night. I hadn't taken my medication in a day so maybe my body is just readjusting to that? I don't know though, I do feel very strange. I just made some lists of things I need to get at Target for school and there's a LOT of stuff. Mostly because I'm moving and I need to buy new of everything because I used up everything I had left at the end of the year/start of summer.

I don't like how unstable my life is going to be the next few weeks. I'm going to have two places I'm living and I feel like I'm going to get confused and annoyed. I still have to stay home because I'll still be working, but I feel like I'm going to want to go back to school already. I kind of already do. I desperately need to find another job up at school but unfortunately my schedule isn't very babysitter-friendly at the moment. If I could find someone with a baby who needs help in the mornings a few days a week, I could totally do that, it would be perfect. I should start looking now. Maybe I'll go do that until I have to go switch cars and pick up Brooke (her mom had an extra car that was with her parents in Kentucky but now it's back here so essentially it's mine to use to pick up Brooke so I don't have to waste my gas/miles anymore. So that's good at least)

I hope I start feeling less strange soon...