This is from when Jose was here a couple of weeks ago. Yes, we're cute and make Ellesse want to throw up haha!
This image is from an art opening for Zack, Justin, and our other friend Mike. It was awesome and I love this pic. (this pic was taken off facebook)


Finally, an update!

So many changes are happening. Mostly good ones. Which makes me a little worried/paranoid because when things are really good, it just means something bad is around the corner. I can't anticipate what that bad thing is, so I'm going to try not to worry about it, just be aware it's there.

This past weekend was amazing. Whitney is here from NC and I missed her SO much! Even more then I realized I did (which was a lot). Friday she came and spent the day at the darkroom with me. Then Friday night we went to the fabric store and got all the ingredients for my halloween costume, which is going to be fucking epic. The dress/main part is done, except for straps for the dress, which will happen sometime this week. I still have to make my jacket/other part. And then I have to work on Jose's costume, which I'm also excited about because we're going to match (although he'll be a lot less sparkly then me). SO EXCITED!!! I can very confidently say that it is a work of art. It's actually the first dress/costume I've made totally from scratch (there are a few elements/accessories that were purchased, but the actual costume is all done by sewing. Hand sewing. No machines here!) I couldn't have accomplished it without Whitney though. I am so thankful she's here in general, and was here to help.

As we were checking out, Whit found the CUTEST monster fabric in the world. And it was cheap. I got some and made a pillowcase (which for the record is the most adorabal and amazing pillowcase in the world) and have just a tiny bit left over. I need, yes, need, to go back and get more. I'm thinking christmas presents (as much as I hate christmas, I hate being rushed with christmas, so I'm already brain storming ideas as to what to make for who, etc). Anyways, I have to return at some point this week (and buy one more thing that I didn't think I needed but turns out, I do).

Then Saturday afternoon and night, we were all at Alex's. We filmed another cooking with Wrazn episode and it was so funny. I don't know if it's possible for us to do a show, not be drunk, and not be funny. We were all incredibly drunk. Like, insanely drunk. Then there was some drama which I'm not going to get into because it's not necessary. The bottom line is, we are all a family, and there's nothing anyone can do to change that. End of story.

I did get sick though around 4am, which I anticipated around midnight. Whit was sick the next morning which was no fun either. Then Zack and Rochelle had to leave to go apple picking (the rest of us were going to go but weren't feeling up for it) so we just were lazy and watched a movie, which was a perfect thing to do. I came home, napped, went grocery shopping and was pretty useless for the rest of the day.

I really want to Jose to come to visit. Usually, after he leaves, I have trouble falling asleep for a few nights because I'm used to him holding me. It's been weeks and I'm still having trouble :-/ I guess that's kind of cute, but not great for my sleeping. I just miss him to the point where my heart aches. But, when he does come, it's always amazing because I'm always so excited to see him. Hopefully soon. Fingers crossed.


Right now I have a GIANT list of things to do and am yet again overwhelmed. My weekends have been filled with fun things and I haven't gotten any work done, which is kind of sucky. I'm scared to check my bank account. Jose did an amazing job at doing a budget for me, and I've done a horrible job at sticking to it. In my slight defense though, I still had to get a bunch of stuff that I wouldn't have otherwise gotten if it weren't the beginning of the year (well, kind of..) The point is this: I won't spend that much on supplies and things of that nature every month. In fact, since I spent a lot more this month, I'm pretty set for a while, so that's good. But, even in defending myself, I have to be honest that I did spend waaaaay too much on things that I may not have "needed" but more, wanted. One of those things being my Halloween costume. But it's so epic and beautiful that I don't care. (actaully I do care, hence the feeling guilty, but I still love it).

I need to go tackle this list of things to do, but I don't want to. I'm feeling really unmotivated and that is not what needs to be happening. I'm also distracted by a bunch of other things going on in my personal life, things that I will talk about eventually, but not yet. Good things though. Good changes. Scary changes, but good ones. I think all changes are scary, especially for me.

This turned into a long update, I rambled, as per usual. I'm going to really really try to update more, mostly for me, with everything that's coming up. If anyone reads this (besides the one person I know who does) please know that things may get a little personal in the next few weeks. I haven't fully decided yet. I have a personal journal I keep as well, maybe I'll just write about stuff in there. We shall see.

Off to productivity! (here's hoping...)